20060524
adaptation. looking back at how i adapted to sec school, i realised i seriously took hell of a bloody long time...
not totally because the school sucks like crap or whatever, but it was because of my stubborn attitude. Just because of the fact that going into chinese high was not my personal choice, but my parents', this made me determined to want to hate the school for my entire 4 yrs in TCHS since orientation in sec 1.
Looking back at what i have done, was it worth it? nah... its not... its really not.
I should have made the best of my time in these 4 yrs.
And honestly after u have left the school and begin to view things from a mature perspective, i am actually pretty proud to be a student of TCHS after all. My friends there, many of them are nice, honourable and reliable, and the school system is seriously fantastic. I dare to say that its almost the best in Singapore haha!
Still i told myself to hate the school from sec 1 to 3, until i begin to open my eyes in sec 4...
Then at sec 4 i realized something... Many of us are just too bloody stubborn to embrace life in a new environment. We are unable to eradicate all the preconceived ideas, as well as not being able to accept the fact that somethings can't be changed... yup. However, its just a common fault of human nature.
We spend lots of precious time moaning and groaning, feeling sad for not being able to get what we want, or being forced under certain circumstances to settle in an environment that we do not like. Well, its alright to still brood over this matter for a reasonably short period of time, but after \you have already done all you could to try to get into your "dream environment(for instance another school)" then its time to settle down, open up your mind and begin to accept and love every bit of your new environment since nothing, except your perspective, can be changed anymore.
It may be a challenge to socialize with a group of people who have already known each other so well before u even know them, but it doesn't hurt to be proactive and make the first move to initiate conversations or join them in various activities. After all, it takes 2 to clap and i believe that things will work out as long as u have an open heart and mind.
Be passionate and love all those around u in ur new environment,
I also believe that it is right to keep in contact with your old pals as well... Though you guys would be seeing each other much less often as before, i believe that it is the quality of the gatherings rather den the quantity that matters.
If you and ur friends are able to meet up on one occasion, converse and FEEL the same way as before even after mths of not seeing each other den u have maintained another friendship.
We meet all kinds of friends in different stages of our lives, in many different environments. Treasure what you have in the present, but do not forget those who were once part of the present as well.
Live a life without regrets.
Live the present to the fullest for a better future.
(:
posted @ 11:45 PM
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20060522
hmmm..today was fencing sabbaticals... it was really pretty fun, but a little more tiring den i expected haha...
Well, I could almost do everithing despite of the ankle... though must admit i was pushing the limits la... but luckily not to the extent that i worsened it. no choice man, i mean. u will feel like sai if u just sit and rot and see ppl poke each other, u are missing all the fun! lol
Well was pretty lonely at the very start only, as i wanted to venture into a sabbatical that i really like ma, but mostly ppl select sabb is because friends go, classmates go....bleah...thats so uncool :P
aniwae glad dat i made new friends veri quickly and had a game of ultimate frisbee after the sab. and ankle still intact! :D LOl
Passed by aloy todae and he said something realli SPASTIC i mean DAMN SPASTIC
Aloy: eh YONG, u heard of why mrs foo is scared of u?
Me: no?!??!??
Aloy: Because Yong Tau Foo ma
I almost wanted to hoot him for that lamest crappy unqualified joke. LOL
,Believe in miracles ...
posted @ 11:04 PM
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20060521
nationals are coming... now i am really worried...
injured ankle, injured shoulder.. all the stupid shit.. i really wonder if i will be ready for it by july. Time flies much much faster den i expected...
I am to be blamed for not putting in the effort to work for nationals during the past 5 mths...its obvious that i have given up, given it up for perhaps things that are perhaps more meaningful in life...as such, i shan't blame anyone else but myself when i do not win the competition.
But ... this is the time when some feelings deep inside of me begin to set in... and i am sure it will go grow stronger as the competition approaches...
Human nature? yea it is... as well as my nature...
No matter what kinda competition it is... i have alwaes strived to do my best...this time it is true once again, except that the effort isn't there...? The hard work that MUST be put in to attain something.
No one to blame again.. but only myself...i made the choice. In life we can't possibly be the best in our studies, the best in sports, as well as having the best social life, it just doesn't work this way...
Make the best outta every terrible situtation...
A Challenge that i will take up
Even though i feel myself getting physically weaker with every passing moment...
My mind will get stronger and stronger and stronger...
My heart will still pump away regardless of the obstacles which i would face.
Grant me the strength to fight this battle...
National 1st again, I must attempt to end this with a beautiful ending.... dun give up ...dun give up... dun give up yong...
posted @ 1:08 AM
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20060520
hmmmm... hc has been doing really well in the various competitions in sports haha.... this is really really rare... we dun use to get 3 golds in 3 days haha....
Especially when the school always neglects the CCA aspect of our school... nice fight warriors, u have my utmost respect...
Sorry.. that the trackers cant continue this spree for this yr, due to some reasons which i dun wish to repeat and in the process anger myself again...yup...
Went to watch basketball match yesterday even though i had a pretty bad ankle... pain as it was, but it was worth it la...
What a beauitful and exciting match, rock on ppl! :D
posted @ 1:00 PM
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20060517
LOL, Seems like everyone is doing this for the past few daes, oh wells I will do it, shan't be a wet blanket! :D
here goes the instruction for the tag:
INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.ok..so here it goes:
ALRIGHT,
First thing first, my perfect lover has to be a girl of course! I am super anti-gay and will kill 1 each time i see 1, Hahahaha jkjk..
And now on to the points... damnit... this is damn hard... i will try not to give the cliche answers... but seems like thats the way it is. aniwaes haha.. :
1. She must accept/love me for who i am. ( i guess thats the basic requirement for everyone)
2. She must have confidence in herself, not the excessively loud and overconfident type though
3. She doesn't have to be as loud and siao as me, haha.. (can't imagine being together with someone with exactly the same personality as me! its weird!) anyway my preference is more of the SWEET and demure type :D (oh and must be quite tall, but NOT TALLER den me, DUH haha. :D)
4. We both gotta have something in common in terms of interests. can almost be anithing ranging frm ani sports to music or anything la!
5. She can and knows when to be serious, and when to go hyper :D
6. We must be able to understand and communicate well with each other ( it's about the chemistry between us!)
7. She has to appreciate the things/sacrifices/stuff that i do for her
8. A very passionate, caring, FUN-loving and kind person
Well... maybe compared to my friends this seems a little demanding, haha.... but as the title states its the PeRfEcT lover... one that cannot be found... haha...
Yea so in reality.. my standards are not very high, after all its about accepting the imperfections of the other party that makes love so special isn't it ? ;)
Victims: gee everione kena liao, sian.
posted @ 12:12 AM
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20060512
Yesterday was a beautiful day,
Apollo Rocks to the ends of the world!!
Best cheering fact, Best fact for sportsday :D
And the prince and princess of apollo is from 75!
So many zai stuff in a single day, lol.
I rarely blog like that, pardon me,
i am too lazy, so i may blog more details abt this wonderful day if i have time la.
why are we so pro?
we are apollo
you are a dodo
you should go back home
WHAHAH what a ego but creative cheer, love it
posted @ 8:53 PM
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20060505
after all the disaster that have happened... i guess... i do actually have some feelings for the track --> Team <--
Though the passion for throwing has long ago faded off, due to the constant bothering injuries, as well as the fact that a person of my weight will not have any great potential for throwing... Aiming for the individual champion is not my goal anymore...
Its over... the blood thirsty and selfish nicholas yong in sec 2 who placed more importance in attaining the individual title den for the school to be the overall champion.
Selfish as it may be.... but this is a necessary trait that one must have, before you can even start dreaming to be the best and excel to your fullest potential. Olympic champions and record holders, they have one thing in common, the thirst, the desire, the rentless pursue for perfection.
For people who do not know how to control this thirst... and for those who unfortunately do not have good coaches to constantly monitor their training methods, such uncontrollable athletes would usually end up with a major injury after some time...
Perhaps a retribution? maybe.... or a terribly harsh sign from God that its time to focus on other things in life? we are clueless about his plans.
Anyway, back to the point... I felt really lost and disappointed when the coaches forced us to sacrifice the A div title to carry out this cheap and unfair strategy... it was den... that i realized.. that i was actually fighting for the team... fighting for the few points that would hopefully make a significant contribution to the overall points...fighting for the beautiful ending, fighting for the victory which the school will be able to share on the final dae, fighting for that contented smile on everione's face whenever we look back to our training days in future...
Now that I have lost my inner fire to fight for own individual self...
and now that everyone have lost the ability to make any difference for the team.....
I am lost... and am still terribly disturbed.
Tang once said this to all of us when i was in sec 4:
If all of us were to stay in track for JC and train properly for the nationals, we will confirm win the title...
I could vividly remember this words...
most of us keep to our side of the bargain, but did u keep ur side of the bargain...?
Its not an issue about a sudden drop of standard in our team nor a sudden rise in standard of our competitor's team. Instead... it is because our coach have taken away our chance to fight for our team.
All thanks to all of your worthless pride.
I would never forget this . for the rest of my life ...
posted @ 11:38 PM
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20060504
Everything is just going wrong... wrong wrong wrong... bloody fking wrong... life is just never fair isn't it....
I dun care if I am suppose to keep this a secret or not, i dun bloody care anymore... I am pissed .. yesh... i am pissed... and what is it about? Its about using us trackers from the college side... as sacrificial lambs.
No doubt HCI (High school track) has retained its championship title for many many many years... but however, HCJC has always been getting between the 2nd and 4th position.
But for this year, its different... it is the year of hope, the year where all the talents are found...a year that would surely be able to attain the overall A Div. champion position... But hopes... all this hopes are all ruined, thanks to shitheads who care about nothing else but their pride...
The plan is as follows....
As the high school side will lose out to the singapore sports school for the upcoming Nation Track and Field competition , at the current rate at which we are going, the coaches have came together and decided to sacrifice the A div.... in order to win sports school and remain as the champions.
How are they gonna do that? Almost every single J1 who is 17 yrs old this yr will be sent to compete for B division, for high school. And as a result, the rest of the team from A div will be left to ROT and DIE....
Why do they wanna do this? The reasons which came out from their mouth was that they have to continue the winning tradition of Chinese High in the track and field meet.
instead of being able to get first for the A div, a goal that we have been longing for many years, we will be settling for a 2nd or 3rd place. A batch of talented athletes all wasted.... all for the pride of these coaches...
4 outta the 6 coaches are frm HCI high school, and out of the other 2, one of them was previously heavily involved in the track and field high school too....
I believe that this is good enough to explain why they are willing to sacrifice so much to help B div to retain their championships. Perhaps as a way to save their faces, they will do everything at all costs to make B div win.
The fact is that even after our B Division has won the championship title for track and field, at a huge cost, Sports school would definitely overtake us in time to come... The sports school itself and its athletes are picked, built, trained and meant to win us. How is it possible for students in a premiere institution, that places far greater emphasis on academics, to beat these guys from sports school? They do not have to spend as much time studying, and have better training facilities, coaches and support... Why can't some ppl just be more realistic? you think the students from our school are machines have 48 hrs in a day?
Furthermore, what will other schools think about HCI once they know that we are actually sending athletes who are older than most of the competitors? Will we able to win with glory?! MY FOOT
From an outsider's point of view as well as my personal point of view, I would only think that HCI (high school) is a stinky and useless school that has resorted to such cheap tactics to win the title.
just like what shuo nan said, its all abt old men talking, and young men dying. ppl up there will not even consider our dignity
We are nothing but just pawns of these coaches...
I was supposed to quit track since the start of JC 1, however, some of my teammates managed to persuade me to fight for another year...
Even the coach said that THIS would be the year where we finally win the A div, year 2006, and it would be for sure if everyone stays in track to fight.
I vividly remember those words which were said last year in july.... those words of encouragement that always reminded me at the back of my head that i do have a team to fight for ...
..As a result i stayed in track... i sacrificed my opportunity of running for council, I risked my existing injuries... all for what? all for NOTHING.. FUCKING NOTHING.
Coaches gave the reasons that we are not training as hard as the B Div boys... so they would naturally deserve this championship more. Is this a fair comparison may i ask? is this? The boys in school do not even have the O levels to prepare and we are actually having the A levels examination at the end of J2? how do u expect us to spend as much time in track like them?
I tell you what is a fair comparison. You have to compare the amount of time this batch has put in DURING their B and C boys competition to achieve such spectacular results 2 yrs ago... I am sure all the coaches could vividly remember how much effort was put in. Now that is a fair comparison..
it is natural that people in the team would lose passion to a certain extent after being in the same sport for 4 damn years, and after having to commit to more stuff in JC...
betrayed... and used
Words cannot express how terrible i feel right now....
The world is just never bloody fair. I really had enough of this shit. Enough of this selfish....bastards
posted @ 9:54 PM
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20060502
Let go...let go everything that hurts.... thanks to the chainmail which i have received not long ago...
It was a good reminder of a very simple but powerful way of dealing with various adversities which we often face in our lives.
Let it go.. yes... let it go..
There are times when our problems are too difficult, too huge, too mind boggling for us to handle... This is where we should stop struggling and seek help from Him. our creator, our father....
posted @ 11:09 PM
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